Stephanie Davis releases harrowing photos of when she was ‘dead inside’ and battling alcohol addiction

Stephanie Davis

by Hollie Richardson |
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The Hollyoaks actress is back on track after a tough few years

Stephanie Davis, 25, first came to our attention as a talented singer on BBC One's musical contest Over The Rainbow, before showing her acting skills on Hollyoaks.

Things seemed to go wrong for the star after meeting 28-year-old model Jeremy McConnell during Celebrity Big Brother in 2016.

The pair continued a turbulent relationship, which saw Jeremy being convicted of assault before refusing to acknowledge he was the father of Stephanie's son, Caben-Albi.

But now, Stephanie looks to be back on track after sharing an emotional post on Instagram.

She said: "To the left was me when I was in a very dark place. I'm not ashamed of sharing these photos, I'm proud, even to the paps who were outside my house in them hard times, I'm great-full for the photos now to see how far I've come.

"As you can see I looked like death, my eyes were completely dead bottom left, the sparkle gone and an empty shell of who I once was, I was Dead inside.

GALLERY: Shocking lip jobs, including Steph's ex Jeremy McConnell

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CLOSER Shocking celeb lip jobs before and after

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Bobby Norris

It's no secret that TOWIE's Bob enjoys a cosmetic procedure every now and again. He even recently flew off to Turkey for a new nose.

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Bobby Norris

But it looked like he might have gone a lip filler session too far during TOWIE filming in 2015.

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Chloe Ferry

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Chloe Ferry

We barely recognise her these days, especially with those uber lips.

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Kylie Jenner

What is a list of celebs with lip fillers if it doesn't include Kylie Jenner, right? Her sister Kim let the cat out of the bag on TV, not that we needed much convincing.

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Kylie Jenner

But Kim revealed on social media that she 'got rid' of the filler this year.

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Marnie Simpson

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Marnie Simpson

There have even been videos of Marnie performing the lip filler procedure at home. Definitely do not try that one at home, people.

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Chloe Sims

TOWIE's Chloe Sims has had multiple cosmetic procedures, including a nose job and a 3D bum lift.

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Chloe Sims

And she's a fan of topping us those lips to keep 'em glossy and plump.

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Louise Thompson

Made In Chelsea fitness guru Louise Thompson has always been a natural beauty.

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Louise Thompson

But her lips have been looking particularly big 'n' bouncy recently. Hmmm...

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Katie Champ

Ex on the Beach's Katie Champ has always had a big, sparkling smile.

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Katie Champ

But she has taken it to the next level with lip fillers. Check out that pout.

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Megan McKenna

Reality TV star Megan McKenna has grown quite a pout since first appearing on our screens during Britain's Got Talent.

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Megan McKenna

She likes to share her lip filling sessions on social media, for people who enjoy watching that kinda painful thing...

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Ricci Guarnaccio

Geordie Shore's Riccihas undergone QUITE the transformation.

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Ricci Guarnaccio

He's a big fan of pouting and posting selfies, so we're always up to date on his latest procedures.

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Nathan Henry

Geordie Shore's Nathan Henry has always liked to look after the aesthetic side of things.

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Nathan Henry

Which includes getting fillers injected to those big old lips.

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Chrysten Zenoni

Geordie Shore's Chrysten Zenoni has always boasted a plump pair of lips.

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Chrysten Zenoni

They're looking pretty extreme right now.

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Ellie Goulding

Singer Ellie Goulding hasn't admitted to having lip fillers.

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Ellie Goulding

Yet we can't help but notice how fuller they now look. What do you think?

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Charlotte Crosby

CBB winner Charlotte has reportedly spent over £200,000 on cosmetic surgery, to the point of being almost unrecognisable.

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Charlotte Crosby

She insists she only gets her lips done once a year. We're not too sure.

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Michelle Keegan

TV star Michelle Keegan had noticeably thinner lips during her Corrie days.

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Michelle Keegan

Michelle hasn't confirmed lip fillers, but they're looking pretty plumper.

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Lauren Goodger

TOWIE star Lauren Goodger is no stranger to nips and tucks, including a £10k Brazilian butt lift.

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Lauren Goodger

Lauren said she gave up on fillers for a more natural look in 2016. But that's all changed now. Her lips are absolutely massive after regular fillers - they need their own passport.

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Ferne McCann

TOWIE's Ferne McCann has denied lip filler accusations.

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Ferne McCann

But they DO look significantly fatter than a few years ago, right?

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Stephanie Davis

Fresh faced Stephanie Davis was a stranger to surgery in her early Hollyoaks days.

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Stephanie Davis

But the star has been open about Botox fillers since becoming a mum, including injecting her lips.

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Harry Derbridge

Harry was one of the original Towie cast members and we have very fond memories of his time on the show - other than the allegedly cheating on Bobby Norris bit.

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Harry Derbridge

Harry now works as a make up artist and his lips look remarkably juicy.

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Rosie Williams

Way back in 2016, Rosie Williams was "legally brunette" and had a striking but natural looking pout.

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Rosie Williams

When she walked into the Love Island villa in 2018 our eyes were drawn to her lips. Is it just us, or do they look like they've had a little help? Hmm...

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Laura Anderson

The Love Islander was known for her natural beauty in the villa, although she did admit to having a boob job.

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Laura Anderson

On leaving the villa, Laura underwent a series of 'mild' cosmetic procedures, including her lips.

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Jeremy McConnell

Jeremy McConnell is the Irish model who embarked on a turbulent relationship with Stephanie Davies in the CBB house and went on to have a baby with her (despite denying it was his...).

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Jeremy McConnell

He unveiled a SERIOUS lip job on social media and apparently commented: "I'm very happy. I'm the happiest I've ever been."

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Olivia Attwood

Love Island's Olivia Attwood is a lip filler veteran, forking out on treatment long before she made her way into the public eye.

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Olivia Attwood

After going to her consultant to get some dodgy under eye filler removed, she was convinced to dissolve her top lip filler after admitting she 'took it too far', and opted for a more natural look instead.

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Amanda Holden

Britain's Got Talent judge Amanda Holden has been open and honest about having botox over the years.

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Amanda Holden

However she's denied having lip fillers and has insisted: "I'd never have my lips plumped, that's the one thing I wouldn't have done."

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"I never thought I would get through it, I really thought I'd be getting buried soon and life wasn't for me, i was suicidal & I had nothing left to give, I was sick of trying, sick of justifying myself,mentally absolutely DRAINED. But somewhere in me wasn't done just yet.

"I was so use to doing it alone, so use to picking my self back up, so use to trying to make everything better.

"I turned to alcohol to numb my pain, it wasn't about wanting a wine, I needed it to stop the pain I had,I was so scared to feel the hurt I was really feeling inside, I did all I could to push them feelings down and run from them,I was scared to feel because I thought if I cried I'd never stop.

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"I was petrified, I was scared, I was lonely, this wasn't how I thought my life would turn out. I didn't want to be a single mum I didn't want the way my life turned out.

"NOW, I am so grateful for the cards I've been dealt, To the right I look at them photos and I see one strong women, today I am the loving caring amazing mother I knew I could be,I said the three words I found so hard to say because of my pride.. I need help.

"Them three words what I feared as weakness turned out to be my strength. I couldn't do it alone.I have learnt how to be able to cope with hard times, I've learnt to like ME, I'm starting to learn who I really am,I use to HATE my self, I had no confidence and my self worth was horrific,it will take me along time to love my self, but today..I like my self, and that's good enough for now.

"Now all I want to do is help others, to give hope!I'm not ashamed of being an addict in recovery I am proud. It saved my life & made me a better person!! If I can help people & give hope then it's made my journey all worth while.

"Today I'm so thankful for my life & son.Today I'm grateful I'm alive ❤️🙏🏽 jai Paul 🎶💪🏼

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The star has also returned to Hollyoaks where she was resume her role as Sinead O'Connor. And she's been sharing videos of songs that she's been writing with a close friend, which suggests that a singing career may be on the cards.

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