The death of soldier Fusilier Lee Rigby shook the nation in 2013 - his mother Lyn and sister Courtney spoke out about their grief on Loose Women today.
Lyn's son was just 25-years-old when he was stabbed to death by a terrorist whilst he was off-duty outside the Royal Artillery Barracks in Woolwich, London.
She appeared on the show alongside her daughter Courtney, revealing that she actually watched every detail of her son's murder on the news, as the whole horrific incident was broadcast.
WATCH: Lyn Rigby opened up about the death of her son Fusilier Lee Rigby on Good Morning Britain two years ago
She said: "I witnessed all Lee’s murder on the TV as I was going into work and my daughter had phoned me to tell me about this soldier being killed.
"I went into work and watched the whole horrific murder as they were showing every little detail. Even them dragging him off the pavement into the road by his leg. I wasn’t sure, I had an inkling, but I wasn’t sure then that it was Lee. We didn’t find out until 12 hours afterwards."
Losing her son in such a brutal and public way has, of course, hugely affected Lyn and her family, and she added: "We’ve learnt to live, how to get through the grief.
"It’s heartbreaking every single day. The grief doesn’t go away but you do learn to wake up with it, put your mask on and get through every day."
The family recently moved house, meaning that the place he grew up was no longer there. She explained: "I’d got to the point where one night I just found myself at Lee’s grave on my hands and knees crying my eyes out.
"I couldn’t cope with it, I didn’t want to live without Lee. After the Manchester bombings that decided it, we have to move, we didn’t feel safe."
Lee’s sister Courtney, who now wants to study criminology, said: "When it happened, you want to understand what’s going on in their head and how they can think something like that is right and how differently they can think and what makes them think like that."
But the family have managed to make something positive out of a terrible situation, setting up the Lee Rigby Foundation to help soldiers.
Lyn explained what the Foundation was aiming to do: "We’ve set up the Lee Rigby Foundation as a legacy for Lee and keeping his name out there. It’s like a retreat, to get away as grieving family, military families and veterans and their families if they’re stressed, they can just come away to the countryside."
She added: "We found that there was no help out there for us. To group as a family, to grieve as a family.
"I’m proud of all of my four daughters and my husband, they all got me through and are very supportive to this day."
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Doctor Christian's advice on skin cancer - SLIDER
1 of 4Check your moles
Elaine developed a small mole on her cheek, but years later a friend said it looked different. That's why you need to check your moles every month. It's a good idea to take photos too, because you see yourself every day and may miss changes. If you're not sure, show your mum, sister or friend. Also check places like your back, bum, scalp, soles of your feet, and between your fingers.
2 of 4Know your risk
If several relatives have had skin cancer, you're more likely to get it too, so any mole that looks suspicious should be checked. Elaine is fair-skinned, which also ups the risk, but nobody – whatever their skin type – should use sunbeds, and nobody should get burned. Burned skin is a sign you've damaged your DNA and that's a cancer risk.If you have more than 11 moles on your right arm, or any really big ones (bigger than 6mm across), your risk is increased too. If having lots of moles makes it hard to check them, you could use an app like SkinVision or Miiskin, or even pay for a mole mapping service. They cost about £150 – but if you've spent years using sunbeds, it could be a wise investment.
3 of 4What to look for
A healthy mole should be even, so both halves look the same, and the edges should be sharp – not jagged or blurred – and it should be one colour, not bigger than 6mm across and it shouldn't change. If it does, see your GP. Symptoms can take 20 years to develop, and can be caused by being burned from as far back as childhood. If you remember being as red as a lobster on childhood holidays, you need to keep checking your moles.
4 of 4Don't be fooled
Sunbeds can give out UV rays stronger than midday tropical sun, so don't think that because it's a nice machine in a shiny salon it's safe or medicalised. Those rays can also damage your eyes, so look out for dark spots or changes in your vision.Melanoma is the third most common cancer in the UK and the earlier you spot it, the easier it is to treat, so make checking your moles a monthly habit.