Jodie Marsh is going through "hell" as a result of her divorce from husband James Placido.
The glamour model has opened up about her heartache in a motivational video she posted on her YouTube channel.
And she told of her struggle to keep smiling through the difficult times after splitting from James just eight months after they got married.
She said: "I’m going through hell at the moment in my private life and I won’t go into it because it’s private, but I am going through hell, believe me - and I’m still smiling, still happy."
The television star has not revealed the reason behind her split from James but she has launched into some furious rants about him on Twitter.
But she admits going through tough times has helped her become the person she is today.
She said: "I have been through a lot in life… and I mean a lot. From being bullied at school, to being beaten up by a boyfriend, who then went on to murder somebody and being bullied in CBB.
"Every boyfriend I’ve ever had has either pounced off me, wanted money from me, wanted fame from me, steal jewellery from me, stab me in the back."
Jodie added that she is not going to let other people affect her in the future, saying: "I realised long ago that you should never let another human dictate your life in any way, they shouldn’t be the reason for your happiness or sadness.
"Don’t worry about what everyone else is doing. Worry about you. Leigh Frances (Keith Lemon) told me that."