"I will 100% be thinking about her when I’m dancing, of course I will"
Strictly Come Dancing is back on TV and it's not been without drama, after Jamie Laing had to withdraw from the show after he tore a ligament, and his replacement was announced as Emmerdale hunk Kelvin Fletcher.
And now, EastEnders actress Emma Barton has opened up about her secret heartache, in a recent interview.
The actress, who plays Honey Mitchell in the TV soap, has spoken about her loss after her nan died just a few months before she agreed to take part in Strictly Come Dancing.
Emma told Daily Star Sunday, "I lost my nan at the beginning of the year. She would have loved to see me on Strictly. She loved the show. I just wish she was alive.
"It's the only bit of this experience that I’m upset about. She was really supportive of everything I've done."
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Strictly Come Dancing Winners
1 of 17Series 1 – Natasha Kaplinsky
Natasha was our first EVER Strictly winner. The television presenter graced our screens in 2004 alongside her dancing partner Brendan Cole.She won the show dancing the Quickstep (36 points), the Samba (31 points) and the Showdance (35 points).Natasha has since returned to presenting and you can see her on ITV news.
2 of 17Series 2 – Jill Halfpenny
Actress Jill won series two with her dancing partner Darren Bennett. She took the crown from Natasha dancing the Foxtrot (34 points) and the Jive (40 points).The actress who has previously starred in EastEnders, Coronation Street and Waterloo Road.
3 of 17Series 3 – Darren Gough
In 2005 Darren became the first man to win Strictly.He won the show dancing the Foxtrot (36 points) and the Paso Doble (36 points) alongside his partner Lilia Kopylova.Darren and Lilia also won the Strictly Come Dancing Christmas Special in 2005.He retired from cricket in 2008.
4 of 17Series 4 - Mark Ramprakash
Mark won the BBC show back in 2006.With his professional partner Karen Hardy they won the show dancing the Tango (34 points), the Salsa (40 points) and the Samba (36 points).
5 of 17Series 5 – Alesha Dixon
Alesha Dixon won series five of the show in 2007.The singer won the BBC show dancing the Waltz (39 points), the Cha Cha Cha (38 points) and the Jive (35 points) alongside her partner Matthew Cutler.Alesha later became a judge on the show during series seven, eight and nine.She has continued making music and you can seee her on ITV's Britain's Got Talent as a judge.
6 of 17Series 6 – Tom Chambers
Back in 2008, viewers saw Tom win the glitterball trophy.Alongside his partner Camilla Dallerup he won the show dancing the Foxtrot (35 points) and the Salsa (38 points).Since winning the show, Tom has continued acting.
7 of 17Series 7 – Chris Hollins
The news presenter won the show in 2009 during the seventh series.Alongside his partner Ola Jordan, Chris won the show dancing the Foxtrot (46 points), the Charleston (50 points), the Lindy Hop (44 points) and the Showdance (46 points).Chris has continued presenting and recently co-presented the TV show, Secret Britain.
8 of 17Series 8 – Kara Tointon
The former EastEnders actress won series eight of Strictly in 2008.Kara won the show dancing the Rumba (39 points), the Showdance (36 points), the Waltz (38 points) and the American Smooth (37 points) with her partner Artem Chigvintsev.Kara has continued acting and has since starred in the movie Let's Be Evil.
9 of 17Series 9 – Harry Judd
The McFly drummer won series ten of the BBC show in 2012 with his partner Aliona Vilani.He danced the Quickstep (40 points), the Showdance (37 points), American Smooth (39 points) and the Tango (40 points) in the final.Harry has since returned to the band McFly and is now a dad of two with his wife Izzy.
10 of 17Series 10 – Louis Smith
The Olympic gymnast won the show in 2012.Louis won the show with his partner Flavia Cacace and in the final they danced the Salsa (39 points), the Charleston (39 points) and the Showdance (40 points).
11 of 17Series 11 – Abbey Clancy
The Britain's Next Top Model runner up won Strictly in 2013.With her partner Aljaz Skorjanec, she won the show dancing the Waltz (40 points), the Showdance (38 points) and the Quickstep (38 points).Since the show, Abbey returned to Britain's Next Top Model (she came second in 2006) as a head judge.
12 of 17Series 12 – Caroline Flack
The former X Factor presenter, who sadly died earlier this year, won Strictly in 2014.In the final along with her partner Pasha Kovalev, she danced the Cha Cha Cha (40 points), the Showdance (40 points) and the Charleston (40 points).
13 of 17Series 13 – Jay McGuiness
Following in the footsteps of McFly's Harry Judge, The Wanted boyband member Jay McGuiness won the BBC show in 2015.With his partner Aliona Vilani, Jay danced the Quickstep (36 points), the Showdance (35 points) and the Paso Doble (39 points).After winning the show he starred in the musical Big and went on to win Celebrity Hunted with his former bandmate Siva Kaneswaran.
14 of 17Series 14 - Ore Oduba
TV presenter Ore Oduba won the glitterball trophy in 2016 alongside his partner Joanne Clifton.During the final the pair danced to American Smooth (39 points) and they scored a whopping 40 points for the Showdance and the Jive.After winning the show, Ore has continued to present and he welcomed his first child into the world with his wife Portia.
15 of 17Series 15 - Joe McFadden
Actor Joe McFadden and his professional dance partner Katya Jones won Strictly Come Dancing in 2017.They managed to win the judges and the public over with the Showdance (39 points), Vienesse Waltz (39 points) and Charleston (40 points).Not only did he win Strictly but the 42-year-old actor broke a record and became the oldest ever winner of the show. Go Joe!Strictly 2017 winner has continued acting after getting the glitterball trophy.
16 of 17Series 16 - Stacey Dooley
Journalist and broadcaster Stacey Dooley took the crown in 2018 with her partner Kevin Clifton, beating Pussycat Doll Ashley Roberts, YouTuber Joe Sugg and Steps' Faye Tozer.They won the show with 39 points on their Foxtrot, 36 points on their Showdance and 39 points with their Paso Doble,
17 of 17Series 17 - Kevin Fletcher
Considering Emmerdale's Kevin Fletcher was a last minute replacement for Made In Chelsea's Jamie Laing, who couldn't participate in the show due to a foot injury, he did incredibly well to win it with Oti Mabuse. Fletcher and Mabuse were given 39 points from the judges for their rumba, 40 points for their showdance and 39 points for their samba.
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The 42-year-old actress went on to say, "I will 100% be thinking about her when I’m dancing, of course. I will be doing it for her.
"You can see as a viewer how emotional Strictly can be. But I’m going to laugh a lot too. I’m going to make it all about the fun."
Meanwhile, last year's winner, Stacey Dooley has revealed she's going to be taking part in the Strictly Come Dancing Live Tour. The investigative journalist will be heading back to the dance floor which will see her start the tour in January 2020 for 32 dates.
This year, Strictly Come Dancing has returned for the 17th season and Emma has been paired up with professional Anton du Beke.