So I'm still very much pregnant, no baby has arrived in our household yet.
Last week was one false alarm after another. It's amazing really, I've done the whole birth thing before but I truly can't remember what I'm looking out for. What do contractions feel like?
I know they are painful and last week I had very painful back pains and stomach pains and they came in waves every 10 mins, so I called out my Independent Midwife, Virginia, and was left feeling a little embarrassed and terrible for calling her out in the middle of the night because it all turned out to be nothing.
I know Virginia is used to this kind of thing but you can't help feel bad especially when it's not your first time at the labour thing. In my defence, it's nearly 11 years ago I gave birth to Corey, plus women are designed to forget how severe contractions are or else every family would consist of one child only!
All week I couldn't shift these false contractions. A part of me thinks it could have been a little psychological because I had Corey 9 days early, I think I was expecting to have an early bird this time too. The most frustrating part about it all is that I've barely slept in weeks now because it's so uncomfortable and constantly getting up in the night trying to walk off the pain.
I won't lie, I've been very tearful and disappointed that all this pain isn't turning into the real thing. I suppose the bonus is the baby is very comfortable inside me plus Corey has been away on a school trip and now he's back I get to spend more quality time with him. Tonight we are off to the cinema to watch a film he's been desperate to see. It's funny really, I've been putting off doing anything in case something happens - so much so it's been mentally detrimental to me. I'm really going to have to get busy again.
We've got everything ready for the baby so nothing needs to be done on that side of things. Car seats are done. We've got a Joie and a Chicco, one for my car and one for Sam’s.
Practised with the prams, however why is it you need a degree to know how they work?! Yes they are very practical and far more advanced than 10 years ago and brilliantly thought-out, but I kinda wish I didn't have all the options.
I've also got everything sorted in the nursery... We couldn't be more prepared if we tried. So seeing as though everything is in place, I think it's best to close the nursery door and enjoy the calm before the storm.
It's my birthday this week, so Sam and I have decided to avoid all pregnancy and baby talk and I'm going to put myself a little schedule together. I think I'm going to do a little window shopping for a new autumn/winter wardrobe.
Depending on how I'll be feeling and how motherhood falls into place, I really want to get back into the gym and back into shape as soon as possible. I'm certainly not going to push myself into it if I'm not feeling ready but fingers crossed, the sooner the better. It's not just about getting back into my skinny jeans... Although I'll be honest the thought of that seems very exciting but I think it's so important to get your endorphins pumping away to help lift spirits and put you in a better frame of mind.
As I finish writing this week's blog, I've just seen that Samia Ghadie has given birth to a baby boy. Congratulations to Samia and Sylvain, so happy for you both... I can only imagine how beautiful he is! I won't lie, I'm a little jealous they beat us to the finishing line... But then again at this rate, Kim Kardashian probably will too!