Liberty Ross revealed what it was like to see pictures of her partner of sixteen years kissing Twilight star Kristen.
Speaking to a US magazine, she said: “I have no words to describe what we went through. But I think, for me, something always has to completely die for there to be a rebirth. And, for me, I feel like I’m going through a rebirth.”
In the interview Liberty, 35, reveals how she put Rupert’s career first, helping him make it as a director.
And it was during his first big film, Snow White and the Huntsman, that the Rupert, 42, was pictured passionately kissing Kristen, 23.
Fashion model Liberty was also cast in the film, as Kristen’s character’s mother.
Speaking about the divorce for the first time, Liberty said: “It’s been very strange for me because my parents have been together for 50 years, so divorce is something I never, ever thought I would do.”
During their relationship Liberty and Rupert had two children, Skyla, 9, and Tenneson, 7.
She said: “I’m not a quitter. I’ve done everything I could to be the perfect wife and mother and really support my husband. But I didn’t have any more to give, you know?”
Liberty also revealed her unusual method of dealing with the split: “I just visualised as being this sort of Maasai warrior.I was just going to stand very still and very strong, and just let it roll past me.
“I tried to keep as far away from it as I could and to understand that this is my family and it’s the most precious thing to me.”
Liberty said that before the affair was revealed, she knew something wasn’t right.
“I knew that I wasn’t feeling 100 percent right, I found myself on a roller-coaster, I’m going to keep up this amazing [facade] everyone looking at me and Rupert and thinking ‘oh wow you guys have it all’. I had times when I was very lonely, very disconnected from Rupert.”
At the time of their split last July, Rupert said: “I am utterly distraught at the pain I’ve caused my family… my beautiful wife and heavenly children are all I have in this world. I love them with all my heart. I’m praying that we can get through this together.
The affair also led to the end of Kristen’s relationship with her boyfriend and Twilight co-star Robert Pattinson.