I’m writing this on my last night with Ricky before going into the Geordie Shore house. Nooooooo! I am going to miss him so much.
Nobody believes me that this is forever and everyone thinks that we won't go the distance. It really frustrates me. I just wish people would take me seriously when it comes to boys.
Yes, I know I've made bad choices in the past, but Ricky and I are serious and everyone is just expecting me to f*** it all up in the house. I can't wait to prove everyone wrong!
Babies on the brain?
Maybe it’s because it’s spring, but I am so broody at the moment. I honestly keep looking at everyone's babies all the time.
I’ve even been thinking about baby names and what mine would look like. I know I'm too young yet and I still want to do loads of stuff, but I can't help it. I never knew I was maternal. It must mean I'm finally starting to grow up!
**Heading back to the Geordie Shore **
I saw Chloe today and I really think it's gonna be my favourite series yet! It's going to be the first time I'm not involved in the drama now that I'm settled with my man. I can just relax, get drunk with the girls and really have fun.
I told Chloe that I'm gonna be her wing woman her and hopefully find her a nice boy, not one of the Geordie Shore boys.
Here comes the summer!
I can't wait for the summer. I have so many plans. I want to go to Ibiza for the first time in a big group as I've heard it's totally mint. Ricky loves it there too.
**Nose job plans! **
I get the bump taken of the bridge of my nose soon and I can't wait. Anyone who has been reading my column will know that, just like any other girl, I have a few hang ups about my body, but I have to say that my nose is my biggest insecurity.
Once it’s done, I will be a whole new woman and feel a hell of a lot better. I can't bloody wait. I know I will get hate on social media about having surgery, but as I have said before, it is my body and I will do what I like with it.
In saying that, I’ve just had my lips done and I have to say I think I may have gone a bit too big this time and I'm considering having it all taken out when I finish filming. I've changed my mind on having big lips.
I know I'm so fickle and the most changeable girl ever! I am bracing myself for the hate! Other than that, I am all natural. Real boobs and real hair.
Staying in shape
Before going to the Geordie Shore house, I started a new diet technique and it worked so well! Every time I wanted to snack on junk food, I had ‘sexy time’ with Rick instead!
I always want to feel good in the bedroom department, so it totally stops me bingeing on all the things that are bad for me! And it's extra exercise – bonus! I didn’t see Ricky complaining.
In the house itself, I am determined to exercise when I have some down time. I will take my exercise gear into the house and will try to get to the gym, if possible. If not, I’ll try to do some sit ups and lunges.
The last thing I want is to come out of the house in the summer, ready for Ibiza, feeling really unhappy about my figure. Constant booze isn’t good for your bikini body as it is, but add to that a cheeky kebab when you come back from a night on the toon, and we’re talking serious beer belly!
Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with a dirty kebab very now and then, but not every night.
**Updating my wardrobe **
I'm really obsessed with floral. I’ve been buying so much of it - floral dresses, swimsuits…everything. I think it's so nice for summer and looks good with a tan! I’m really happy with my wardrobe choices for filming.
I’ve got a mixture of things to wear, including stuff from my favourite little boutiques in Newcastle. I've got some really nice holiday outfits and swim suits and I’m hoping the girls and I can mix and match.
Chloe agreed to wear the thong swimwear with me, so there will be a lot of butt in the hot tub this series!
Looking to the future
I am starting to think seriously about my future and have taken some inspiration from Gaz on the show. He has his head screwed on when it comes to his career. As well as being in the show, he has made a serious future what with his clothing line and club in Zante.
I really want to open my own bar too. I think it would suit me. I would have a stage, burlesque dancers and it would be done out all old fashioned, like the 1920s. It’s definitely a goal of mine and maybe a new business venture when the time is right.
I <3 Taylor and Calvin!
I am not the only one who’s totally loved up with a gorgeous celebrity lad, it would appear! Calvin Harris and Taylor Swift showing they are definitely an item at the Billboard Music Award was lovely to see.
Taylor always seems like a genuinely lovely, down to earth girl. I loved it when she gave presents to her biggest fans too.
I wish them lots and lots of luck. They look mint together!