Amanda Holden has spoken out about losing her son Theo
Britain's Got Talent judge and TV personality Amanda Holden has today bravely opened up about the heartbreaking stillborn birth of her son Theo in 2011. After suffering a miscarriage at 16 weeks in 2010, there was more heartache for Amanda and her husband Chris Hughes in 2011, when Amanda gave birth to her stillborn son.
Now, seven years on, Amanda has appeared on This Morning to talk about the heartbreaking moment, and how she dealt with it.
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2 of 111) Precious Little One
3 of 112) An Angel Never Dies
4 of 113) A Million Times
5 of 114) I'll Be There
6 of 115) Silent Child, by Kelly Lancor
7 of 116) Today Was The Day
8 of 117) These Are My Footprints, by Tamara Barker
9 of 118) Angel Of My Tears
10 of 119) Oh Precious, Tiny, Sweet Little One
11 of 1110) The Moment You Left Me
Fighting back the tears as she spoke to Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield, Amanda said: "There was no reason for Theo’s stillbirth and so I was partly relieved, because I thought, 'Good, we can have another baby.'"
She added: "Part of me was like, 'Oh god, what have I done? Is it something I have done? Was it because I ate those McDonald’s fries the day before?'"
Recalling the awful moment, Amanda revealed she was watching Myleene Klass on Loose Women at the time, which made he think she hadn't felt her baby move for a while. She said: "I was watching Myleene on Loose Women. She was pregnant with Hero at the time, who is the age Theo would have been. I then thought, 'God I haven’t felt him move for a while.' I had a bath, then a coffee, still nothing. I then got in the car and drove to hospital."
Amanda then told the hosts: "My lovely midwife, Jackie, told me she couldn’t find a heartbeat and that was the start of the horrible day. You have to then deliver this baby.
"That’s why it’s different from a miscarriage. Giving birth and having a miscarriage are two very different things."
Amanda and Chris were already parents to their daughter Alexa when they tragically lost Theo, and they later welcomed another child, a girl called Hollie in 2012.
Speaking about how the birth of Hollie helped the couple cope, Amanda said: "It’s the only way you get better — having a baby again, having your arms full. I know that having a baby helped me to continue to live."
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