Amanda Holden on finding peace with not having another child: ‘I would be dead next time’

Amanda Holden has been very open about her traumatic childbirth experiences

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by Jessica Anais Rach |
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The brave TV presenter has come back fighting after suffering a devastating miscarriage in 2011, and nearly died giving birth to her second daughter.

But the 44-year-old, who married record producer Chris Hughes in 2008, now has a beautiful family- 9-year-old Alexa and 3-year-old Hollie.

In an honest interview with Good Housekeeping, Holden revealed she got through the hard times by recognizing her role to her two living children.

'My therapist told me I had no more tools or coping mechanism left. She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality.

'I think you have none of these worries unless you’ve got children. If it had just been me and Chris and I’d died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother.

Amanda with her husband and daughters
Amanda with her husband and daughters

She added: 'It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I’ve got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that’s why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody. It was a really good thing. I’m probably too open but I have no secrets.'

And the star has made peace with the fact that she cannot have any more children.

'I’m not allowed. I would be dead the next time. And I think Chris would say you can have them but you’re not having them with me.

'I’ve got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me.'

The BGT judge reveals her husband has been her rock:

'The minute I met him, my life changed so much for the better. He has a great perspective on life.

'He makes me stop, he’s given me my children and literally stood by my death bed and I really fancy him…'

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